kis·met
noun
1. fate: fate or destiny
2. islam Allah’s will: the will of Allah
[Mid-19th century. Via Turkish from Persian kismat, from Arabic kisma(t) “lot, portion,” from kasama “he divided, allotted.”]
I stared in the mirror and caught a true glance at myself
not the shadows of self piled up
Self awareness at its best, frowned eyebrows, rueful smile
Knowing, and yet